"I once vowed never to invest too much emotion into anyone."

what i want in life is to be uncomfortable, oogled over, hit on, harassed, & USED by everyone i know....and everywhere i go. this should go on for years until the point comes where i am raped. brutally. traumatized.
after this, i should think i have recovered to be knocked around like a punching bag. hit me, smack me, push me, throw me, choke me...teach me a lesson. i'm just a whore right? i'm the whore when you can't see that i care about you. I'm the slut when you string women along making us all think the same thing (that you care for us) when you don't. I'm a cunt when you only think about yourself...ironicly, you always choose the worst one for you.

years shall pass...
and i shall recover (again)
to be married, and imprisoned into a suburban home to cook, clean, and drive our spoiled asshole little kids around. I shall do this until I die.



man, that sounds good.